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Geek squad hero, bookworm, aspiring tambourine, zill, and ghungroo aficionado, narwhal collector, and secret belly dancer hypnotist.
Be afraid of what lurks behind those braids. Be very afraid.

Someone needs to make a Union for life

A slaughter house for all emotions
then again most relationships are.
Trickle in your hope
then stare blankly into the death of a star
Pretend you're taking action
then speak again, your empty promises
Take life with ease
then leave the liability to me
Again I'll own it and proudly bare my cross
then you have to answer to me, because I'm the boss

The gauging

I haven't mentioned on here that I am gauging my ears. I am at a 6g right now..still not a stupendous change but it hurt like hell to put in the jewelry. I am going to start taking pics of the progress and post them. Just for the hell of it. I'm pretty sure that no one reads this but, I may want to look back at my non-modified ears someday. I would be getting more tattoos(and I will soon), but they are much more expensive than piercings. My last tattoo was done 2 months ago and it is fairly small and it was freaking $150..yeah, won't be getting anymore until I have another decent job. My lip and tongue were only $20 each. I'm going for my industrials next, I think. Anyway..I feel like writing a new poem.

Maybe I'll post it next.

Life is 10% what you make it, and 90% how you take it

Life is about perception. There is a good and bad side to almost every situation (with the exception of a few). It's all about how you choose to view things. I try to see the good in everything that happens to me, and believe me I've had a lot of stuff happen to me. If there isn't anything that stands out as positive then I chalk it up to a "lesson learned". I have times when I struggle with this, just like any normal, thinking, feeling, human being. But there are some people who thrive off being the victim in life, like they are some sort of "prey" and everyone is out to get them. To me this is a very narcissistic and selfish. How about trying to see things from another point of view? How about growing up and taking resposnibility for your actions.The quality of your thoughts directly controls the quality of your life. If all you do is see the negative side and constanly look for ways that someone has "done you wrong" then you will constantly "be the victim" of other people's actions. If you can take responsibility for choices you have made to get you in that situation to begin with then you can actually learn from life experiences and grow as a person. It is so easy to lie down and play the victim. How about fighting for your happiness and changing something when you realize there is a change to be made. You have to be the writter of your life, not the actor, director, or producer, but the person who hands out the scripts and says, "this is my life, and you are just living in it". I will never let someone else's mistakes or wrong doings towards me effect me in a negative way (unless it's against my kids..then that is a different story). They are writing their own life story and will have to pay the ultimate price of living with their failures. My life story will continue on the same path, but with just that bump in the road to add plot. We may not have control over every little thing that happens in our lives, but we certianly can control how we respond to them, and in turn we can control how we feel. Change the way you look at things, and the things you look at change.

Love ♥ not dim and blind but so far-seeing that it can glimpse around corners, around bends and twists and illusion; instead of overlooking faults love sees through them to the secret inside~

Some things I wrote earlier this summer.

Tearing it up, but not wearing it out

What have we done to this place?
I crave a different way of life.
How do you know when to get there?
Or how, even?
Take a shot at something new.
Who will I be if I don't succeed?
A trollop of seasons? a vagabond?
Or simply a free spirit who has been trapped in this image?
We see things that I can't reach.
How frustrating.
Try, I keep turning back into a wasp of a person
like everyone else.
A pest, nuisance to this land.
I could help
I could move it all around
Free myself and loved ones of this typical scene.
I realize I don't need permission
Let's do it.
Take a ride.
We can always come back.
I need a new life to call my home.
I'm going to let it all go and give it all in.
I could be my dreams.
We have this chance at risking it all.
I am the ruler of the castles in my air.
I will silence my alarms.
You will be the guardian of our fate,
But I hope to lead the way.






I speak truths, when you're me


I see you wavering between who you were and who you know you can be. Your past is trying to creep into your future. I seek potential, not those who have achieved it. I enjoy the process of growth. I want to see it, be a part of it, influence the better in people so they can compare to the latter. I want to be the gold in your heart, the one who spoke the truth and opened doors to a better way. Somehow, I have a gift for this. Perspective is a direction in life. I chose a lighter path, brushing off negatives and denying disapprovals. Our life is ours to navigate in choppy waters, but we always come out clean, if we chose to see it that way. I'll never drown and if you're with me, I'll teach you to bathe and swim with the sun. Always, on the brighter side.




A first for all

Seeing a life for what it is
A choice, a chance, a trick
Or so it seems

Took the lead, because no one else will
Separate, but at one fell swoop
Collectively walking the dream

Getting to what is mine
Owning it, living, manipulating happiness
Molding wishes into my professions

Promising to be held accountable
We wade though the orbs of our past
Dangling them in darkness

We will never forget
The tiny steps that led us to no regrets
Suspended tirelessly in waves of hilarity

Forever

A linkage to me old blog

http://sillynerdgirl.livejournal.com/

I may still blog there occasionally..not sure why I stopped..I like it here a tad better, guess that's why.

Sweat and stink

It's going to be °106 today. I guess anything worth doing, is worth doing right. Hell yeah, GO SUN!..?

How the hell am I hungover? I haven't drank in a week...

I have had the worst headache all day today...it finally peaked at about 6pm. I've been throwing up and dry heaving for about 5 hours :( Honsetly, I am pretty sure it is stress induced. Time to get shit together. I can't and won't live like this. I like having money, I like feeling secure...actually, I require it. I'm not cut out for stress and bullshit.
Hopefully my plan works out. I'm going to pull this off. You wait and see.

I hope that certian things that are going on right now are just temporary. Sometimes I wonder if I let too much time in my life pass me by with the "benefit of the doubt" theory.
Nothing changes if nothing changes..and people can SAY anything. I'm more of a "let me see you in action, then I'll believe what's coming out of your mouth" type of girl.
I don't know. I just don't feel good, and it is bringing the "stinker" out of me.
I better go to bed.